Torture

they have given me 3 minutes, 3 minutes to write in my diary. they almost confiscated it from me when they found out i had hidden it, but O'brien allowed me to keep it. o'brien is messing with me, whose side is he on? after a few hours, or days in the cell, I was taken by some guards to a tourture chamber, they beat you and made you confess to whatever they wanted you to say, whether it was true or not. they made me tell stories of secret anti-government societies even though i know now they dont exist they do to them. and i was a part of it!? o'brien is a minister of love, he treats me, and then tortures me, he tries to teach me and help me, but at the same time he is trying to brainwash me. they believe that the only way one can learn Big Brother's ways is through pain and torture. i haven't eaten, shaved, bathed, in a week now maybe. my time is up, i must leave now.